I've been wanting to write.
This Wednesday is the 24th. Of July.
One year from when she left us.
I didn't know what to write about.
Until yesterday night.
At d*groups when my youth pastor was speaking...
He said something that caught my attention.
"We know as a follower of Christ life won't be easy. We know the tribulations and trials are coming. But are we preparing ourselves for that? Are we getting to a place with our relationship with Christ that when trials come the first thing we think to do is go before the Lord in prayer?"
I couldn't help but think back to this time last year.
I had just gotten back from camp.
Paige was the FIRST person to greet me when I got off the bus. Even before my parents.
We were getting ready for SWTA together.
What if I had been hearing the exact same thing my youth pastor said last night?
Would that have made a difference in my reaction to the next couple of days...
I was probably just thinking, "I don't need to prepare. Because that will never happen to me."
And then it did.
And I questioned God endlessly. I ran to people- not to Him.
Would my life then have been different?
If I would have been preparing for trials...would my reaction have been running to Him?
It just makes me think.
And gives me motivation to prepare for anything else that could come my way.
Because this year has certainly been full of trials.
Constantly something else.
So I'm going to LISTEN this time.
And hold on to all the sweet memories I have of us from those last few days.
What a great comfort it is to know that He has already overcome.